Yo-Yo as it goes I have been stuck at my current poundage an eternity it seems. I SEE how much my body has changed through CrossFit and AdvoCare but I am not seeing the change in my mid-drift that I want to see. So my new operation is to lose it. I do not care if I stay 230 for the rest of my life, but BYGEORGE I will see an ab again before I die….. My ab(s) that is.
My first major battle is to stop complaining about my body. Everyday I criticize myself for this or that, I look in the mirror and see the twenty-something I used to be that was fit and I start picking myself apart. This is my biggest problem and I need to get over myself. I have a friend that does this same thing to herself daily and it annoys the hell out of me because if she could see what I see she would think differently……..
Then, all of a sudden I hear BAZINGA…. If I see her so much differently than she sees herself then maybe just maybe the people who keep telling me I am looking good are telling the truth. So my mission is to start loving the me now, to still love that twenty-something chick too and down the road to love the me that I will be then.
This pic was taken a couple of months ago, I finally started wearing shorts to the gym even though I my legs are one of the many things I like to beat myself up over – but that was a huge step and I didn’t take the time to enjoy the moment. In this “love myself” phase of my operation, I am going to take my own advice.
Every morning when I wake up:
- I will write 5 things on my bathroom mirror I like about my appearance
- I will compliment myself
- I will make myself invest time to fix my hair, put makeup on and dress up
Not major deals here but a few things that are reasonable and reachable. My inside has to match my outside and if I am not happy with myself in my own mind, how in the world could I help others be happy with themselves?
#operationlosethegut is happening.